In the black hole...

When you come to realize who means something to you in life, dont ever let it go.
Dont take things for granted. EVER.
I've lost someone very important in my life, and I've yet learned to cope with it.
I feel like I've been thrown into a black hole, with no one there and no way to escape.
There is always that little spot of light, which in this case is my only little spot of hope.
I keep asking myself; why did you do that, you should have never said that.
I can't go back. I can't change what I've done, and I can't change what he's done.
My mind keeps denying that all of this has happened, but reality keeps knocking at my door; he's gone.
There's no one there to hear me cry, talk, scream, laugh, sleep... I used to never appreciate those little things that he did for me.
When I finally let the cat out of the bag; when I finally tell him everything I feel...
A tidal wave comes and demolishes everything.
And now is the aftermath.. suffering; crying; missing him...
Not having anyone to go to anymore.. No one to tell your stupid stories about the spider you saw today.
All I can do is pray that things will get better. All I can do is pray that things will go back to the way they used to be, and better than ever.
I just have to keep looking up to that little spot of light.. Hoping that it will get bigger.