chapter 3 .

So , I went through some type of suffering - but honestly , it was all for the better .

Where would I be if things didn't happen the way they did ?

Who would I have to back me up , if things continued to go downhill ?

& now you're back .

you're asking for forgiveness .

you're asking me to believe what you tell me .

its not that simple .

I want to know everything down to the smallest detail ..

I want to know ; what made you do what you did ?

I'm not in a black hole anymore .

I'm not suffering anymore .

I have become ME again .

So , tell me .

Should I give you the chance to speak ?

chapter 2 .

well , for the most part , I'm doing much better !
After blaming it all on ME , I was the one who did NOTHING wrong .
I'm glad things happened the way they did .
Who knows how much longer I would have been suffering and taking SHIT from someone ?
pshtt . I dont need you . I never did .
Good luck finding someone who likes to be cheated on , and on top of that , care for you like I did .
You fucked it up buddy .
If you think you are ruining my life , you aren't . You made it better . I dont have to see your lying ass anymore . and I'm happy about it .

new chapter of my life - and you can't stop me . :)

In the black hole...

When you come to realize who means something to you in life, dont ever let it go.
Dont take things for granted. EVER.
I've lost someone very important in my life, and I've yet learned to cope with it.
I feel like I've been thrown into a black hole, with no one there and no way to escape.
There is always that little spot of light, which in this case is my only little spot of hope.
I keep asking myself; why did you do that, you should have never said that.
I can't go back. I can't change what I've done, and I can't change what he's done.
My mind keeps denying that all of this has happened, but reality keeps knocking at my door; he's gone.
There's no one there to hear me cry, talk, scream, laugh, sleep... I used to never appreciate those little things that he did for me.
When I finally let the cat out of the bag; when I finally tell him everything I feel...
A tidal wave comes and demolishes everything.
And now is the aftermath.. suffering; crying; missing him...
Not having anyone to go to anymore.. No one to tell your stupid stories about the spider you saw today.
All I can do is pray that things will get better. All I can do is pray that things will go back to the way they used to be, and better than ever.
I just have to keep looking up to that little spot of light.. Hoping that it will get bigger.

positive thinking

leads to great outcomes.

Friday the 20th

haha, it was really supposed to be Friday the 13th..
but, you know.. you knowwwww. (whorse)
in class doing a bulliten board.. since 8:30 this morning


Whorse, "MR. MC CLOUD IS GONNA DANCE WITH HER TONIGHT!"
lmaooooo
Okay no time for blogging.

OUTTT. :]

p.s. - Jesus saves !